The Car Wash Trick

We need rain. I think the whole East coast needs rain. So I did what I usually do when I need it to rain. I went and got my car washed. Since my car lives outside, getting it washed means it gets dirty faster, especially if it rains.

There is one flaw in my plan. I now have unlimited car washes from rip tide, formally the Durham Ritz. They are the best car wash. I used to like when they were full service, but I find the do it yourself way it is now very satisfying. The reason this is a flaw is if it rains I can run my car back through the car wash for free. So the magical power of washing my car to get it to rain might have disappeared.

I am sorry my father is not alive to enjoy the unlimited nature of the monthly car wash pass at Rip tide. He would have been in heaven, where he might be now, but that’s not guaranteed. He was a man who loved a good car wash. I would say 27% of my childhood weekends were taken up at the car wash with my Dad.

If he had a pass to the car wash he would bring the car there every three to four days. He would say it’s not good for the car to go everyday, even though he would want to.

He was also a nut about the weather and that is probably how I came to be superstitious about washing the car and getting it to rain. Of course my Dad saw the rain as a bad thing, but climate change had not taken over in the 1970’s. We were much more concerned with people throwing trash out if their car windows at Indians, (who we now know are native Americans).

Native Americans, never appeared in cars in the 1970’s, they didn’t need to, they had rain dances. I guess that is what I need now. A rain dance by a real Native American. The car wash just isn’t doing it.

The Stolen Holiday Week

In a perfect world Thanksgiving would be this week. Sadly this year Thanksgiving is almost as late as it can be. The problem with this late Thanksgiving is it gives us one less week between Thanksgiving and Christmas. The loss of that week is tough on me.

I still have as many events in December as ever, but I don’t have that extra week to decorate, cook, shop and wrap. I know that technically I still have the same number of weeks in the year, but physiologically the Christmas season is from the day after Thanksgiving to December 25.

I am trying my hardest to get ahead of the game. I spent all weekend painting ornaments. I am working on my party menus. My wrapping paper has arrived and the gifts are coming in. That does not mean I have figured out what I am getting everyone, let alone the gifts I need for parties or hostesses.

Next year is only going to be one day better. I am going to have to start planning for next year now as the pressure of this short season can not be forgotten.

The Perfect Gift

I got a message from a random man I did not know on Messenger. I don’t always even look at those messages as they so often are some ex-military, older, good looking in the photo widower. Yeah Right. I already have my perfect husband. Stop trying to spam me.

But this man’s name did not seem like a fake man so I opened it. He was trying to find me as he was looking to buy his wife Mah Jongg private lessons. What do you get the woman who has everything? Private Mah Jongg lessons sounds like a great idea.

I gave him all the information and then made him a certificate he can give his wife to prove that he actually thought of this gift and bought it in advance.

I wish more husbands were this creative. I had not taught his wife so he really had to do some research to find me. He apparently did a lot of due diligence on me before he contacted me.

My husband, who is an excellent gift giver, often thinks of an idea at the last minute and makes his own gift certificate and hopes that it all works out. It usually does, but sometimes I think his idea is too extravagant and I don’t redeem it. Thankfully he had not actually paid for it in advance.

If you want your husband to give you private lessons, or a small mah Jongg party with me as the guest teacher, have him contact me. I think I am going to open more messages from strange men before the holidays, but if they include a photo I am going to delete them.

Recovery Day Soup

Russ picked me up at the airport at midnight last night. I saw my sweet girl Ellis waiting to pick up her boyfriend Kevin there at that late hour also. Young people can fly in then and be OK. Old people like me need to recover.

Shay and I slept until 10 this morning. I might have slept longer, but my phone pinged. Probably my phone thought I should get up and not sleep the day away.

I lazed around more than I should have. Talked on the phone for a very long time to my friend Jan and eventually got moving and went to the store. Russ had lived like a hermit while I was gone. He ate only old food I had left him and did not leave the house but once to go buy Shay some hamburger. Poor thing is so skinny we need to cook food so she eats enough. She is particularly happy with this hamburger.

I asked Russ what he wanted me to cook for dinner tonight. He gave me a New York Times recipie for a tomato, tortellini, sausage and kale soup. It sounded delicious, but a little heavy as it called for heavy cream. What in the world. It also only had onions and kale and I thought it could handle more vegetables. So I modified the recipe and was very happy with the outcome. I am sure I liked the lightened up version better than the heavy cream one. I did add double the amount of tortellini so there is the trade off.

1 lb hot Italian ground bulk sausage

2 onions chopped

2 delicotta squash, seeded and chopped

4 carrots, cleaned and chopped

2 T. Fennel seeds

2 T. Smoked paprika

2 T. Garlic powder

1/2 t. Red pepper flakes

Salt and pepper

4 T. Tomato paste

28 oz. Tomato sauce

8 cups of chicken stock

1 pkg. fresh cheese tortellini

1 pkg. fresh spinach and cheese tortellini

1 12 oz can low-fat evaporated milk

1 giant bunch of lacinato kale, de-stemmed and chopped

1/2 cup chopped basil

Juice of a lemon

Parmesan cheese for garnish

Put the sausage in a stock pot and cook on medium, chopping it up as it browns. Once brown add the onions, delicatta and carrots and cook another five minutes stirring often. Add the spices and cook two minutes. Add the tomato paste and cook 2 minutes.

Add the tomato sauce and the chicken stock and bring to a boil. Then reduce to simmer for ten minutes. If you want to cook this soup in advance of serving you can do it up to this point.

With this part of the soup almost boiling you can add the tortellini. Simmer for three minutes then add the condensed milk and the kale and basil. Cook another three minutes until it is hot and the kale is wilted.

Turn off the heat, add the Lemon juice and taste for spice levels.

Serve with Parmesan cheese on the side.

It was the perfect dinner on my recovery day from being away all week.

Most Things are Not About Luck

I hear it might have rained at home. I hope so. We have gone much too long without rain and we don’t need to get into a horrible drought along with everything else going on. It is hard to leave the paradise I have been in where the cares of the world seem very far away.

We had a beautiful day in Lyford with a great mah Jongg tournament today. The winner won five of her six games and it made me quite happy. Of course one of my very best students didn’t win any, which just goes to prove that sometimes the luck is not running your way. Luck equals out over time, but in six games you can have a bad streak.

Last week I finished listening to Ina Garten read her memoir. One things she said her husband Jeffery always said is, “sometimes you don’t know if something is good luck or bad luck.” So true. Like the person who misses their flight and thinks it’s bad luck, only for that plane to have an accident. So missing it was good luck.

I was leaving beautiful Bahamas, and when I got on the plane I had not just a whole row to myself but a whole section to myself. It was quite and I sat in the middle of the row relaxing. That was luck.

I am not complaining about leaving the Bahamas because I get to go home to Russ and Shay. The only thing that could be better than that is if Carter was there too. But she is happy in Boston. She did call me Monday with an adult report card. She got a promotion at work and a raise. I love getting those report cards. So happy she loves not just her job, but her company, co-workers and her fabulous boss. She is so lucky to have this great woman mentor teaching her so much.

As Carter was telling me about her promotion conversation I thought about all the bosses I had in my young career maybe only one was any good, and he was a little spineless when it came to senior leadership, so he wasn’t really good. I had some down right idiot bosses. The one thing I learned from them was how not to be a boss. It wasn’t lucky, but I learned nonetheless.

We just don’t know exactly how things are going to work out, but we all just have to keep doing the best we can and moving forward. Good luck or bad luck, we all get some of each. You just have to put the best effort in because most things are not about luck.

I’m Going to Hate Going Home

I have had a beyond fabulous time at Lyford Cay this week. It is not just that it is the most gorgeous place. It is not just that the weather is perfect. It is not just that the accommodations and food are wonderful. It is the people.

I have had the most fun with my students who all have the best senses of humor and are up to the challenges I throw at them. Thankfully they get me and know how much I adore them.

The staff here know me now too and are just fantastic. They go out of their way to make sure everything is perfect for me.

The big reason I am going to hate to leave is that Ruth E. has been over the top kind and generous. She is the reason I got this job. She is my constant advocate. She is always making sure I am taken care of. Her job got even bigger this trip because Russ did not come. I was fine coming on my own. Ruth E. Did not ever want me to be alone so she included me in every family dinner and lunch.

Tonight she threw a lovely party where all the Mah Jongg students and their spouses are invited to her house. It is one big love fest for me because the classes are over and we only have the tournament in the morning. So everyone is so happy because they loved the week so much. I got a chance to sit down and have good long talks with some wonderful ladies.

Then at exactly 8:00 everyone left and Ruth E. served dinner to us. She asked Diane, one of the beginner students to stay and eat. Diane had some great stories.

It is going to be hard to go home tomorrow and not have all these people doing so many things for me. I will be happy to see Russ and Shay. Russ was missed, especially by one student who wondered where my very handsome husband was.

I hope Ruth E. gets some rest and will be happy she is not having me hanging around. I’ll be back in February. Apparently things are sold out.

Reality Happens

It is a glorious day. I am so thankful to have the best job doing the thing I love with people I so enjoy. My friend Ruth E. continues to be the kindest host and makes sure I am well taken care of. Tonight we went for dinner with the family and had such a lovely time. We were treated by her sister-in-law Olivia which was above and beyond.

I came back to my to room and finally got to look at my phone and read my email and messages from the day. Rather than answering important emails I looked at Facebook and read my friend’s Holley post. Holley has been suffering with ALS for the last two years and it is a cruel and relentless opponent. Holley has met it head on with humor and grace and all the sparkle she can throw at it.

Still, it is exhausting. Exhausting for Holley, her family, her friends, her care givers, but she rarely complains. Holley is not only her own best cheerleader, she is ours.

So when she posted tonight about how she loves clapping and what clapping for others means. She went on to admit that she is thinking about what her end might be like and let us into the scary thoughts that come with that. And just as the pain of thinking about how hard this has been on her, she gives us joy in telling us exactly what she wants her last days or hours or moments to be. She then charges us with what we should do when we hear she is gone… stand and clap.

Even in her waining moments, she is thinking of us. We don’t know what we should do with out her, but now we know at least we should clap. Because she says it is “ Just a little 10 finger boost to say, Well done, well done.”

I cherish all these instructions and opportunities to tell Holley I love her and thank her for giving us ways to handle grief. It does not happen this way most of time. For now I pray for there to be nothing but joy for Holley and to be bathed in the light of the love she has sent out in the world. Please be free of pain and fear.

I am clapping now while Holley is still here. She knows I think she has done well indeed. But when she “gets called up to the big show” as she calls it, I will always think of her when I clap or hear clapping. And if there happens to be a disco balls reflecting all the light in the most sparkly way, I will know she is right there with me, shining light and clapping too.

Day One Bahamian Mah Jongg

I’m a little bit like a race horse who can’t wait to get out on the track. Except that I can’t run, I am anything but sleek and I refuse to let some small man get on my back. But in terms of being happier teaching Mah Jongg than doing about anything else, if teaching mah Jongg was anything like running a race, then I would be a race horse.

Today I had a two most lovely groups of students. Beginner was in the morning. Most of the students are new to me, but we had two repeats who I so enjoyed. Since this was the first time most of the class had met me I tried to not scare them to death. Sometimes it can be scary to be a beginner.

They did a great job keeping up and learning exactly what I was teaching in real time. Every once in a while I have a student who nods their head and makes all the right faces about understanding, but is actuality they don’t get it at all. I can honestly say I didn’t have any of those today.

My big class was the Beyond beginner afternoon class where we had 12 tables of mostly people who have taken from me before. In that case I can be a little more outrageous and animated as they have already experienced my class. It makes my heart so full when I hear from some of these repeat students that Mah Jongg has saved their life, or that they flew in from Geneva just to be in this class. I hope they are always learning new things in these classes as well as having fun.

When I left class I saw a sign outside. That said, “Please be very quiet. A meeting is in progress.” For a split second I thought, “Oh Lord, I was so loud.” Then I realized the meeting that was in progress was my class. We never would have noticed if someone outside the class was being noisy because we were inside being loud and having too much fun.

The fun continued into dinner. I got to join Ruth E. her daughter-in-law Kelsey, her sister-in-law Olivia and Cousin-in-law Carmen. I was the outlaw in the group, but it was a great dinner with lots of laughing.

Now I have to force my body to go to sleep so I can do it all again in the morning.

I Need the Stimulation

I’m not good without a lot to do. I know I got this from my father. I can’t sit around. Give me some work. Let me be busy.

I come to the Bahamas to teach a day in advance just in case there is a problem with the travel. When there is no problem that means I have more than an extra day to sit around.

There are some tasks for me to to do to get ready for class, but they are small.

Today I went to set up the classroom at ten, the agreed upon time, but there were no table cloths. They had to come from the laundry after being pressed. So maybe they would be ready at one. I went at one, not yet. So I went and had lunch and thankfully ran into Ruth E. and Kelsey so at least that was a great way to wile away some time.

I went back to the room and most of the tables are gone, and the room is full of chairs stacked on top of each other. Apparently that room is need to store chairs when there is going to be a big event somewhere else. I was promised they will be out by nine tomorrow, which I am sure they will be. But that left less setting up for me to do.

So I took a walk. I went to the beach. I looked at orchids. I was bored. I don’t want to look at any news or social media since I can’t handle that right now. I played some games, read, organized my clothes. I still had hours to kill. I talked to Carter, talked to Russ. Just not enough activity for me.

Eventually it came time to get ready for the welcome to Mah Jongg week cocktail party. I took the longest shower I could stand before the guilt of using too much water got to me. It was all of four minutes.

I went to the party and had a wonderful time seeing previous students and meeting new ones. I ate a tuna tartare bite. It didn’t taste quite right. I started to get a little clammy, no pun intended. I can not have one bite of bad fish take me down.

I begged off my dinner invitation and came back to lie down. I think I am OK, but now I am bored again. I can’t wait for classes to start tomorrow. I need the stimulation.

It’s My Seat

If it’s February it must be the Bahamas…but wait it’s November. Yes, now I’m teaching at Lyford twice a year. Don’t hate me, but I just made it here by the skin of my pants. (Is that the right idiom?) No, by the skin of my teeth. Not sure where I got pants.

Russ didn’t feel like he could spend a second week of the year as my arm candy. He has his own work to do. But he did nicely drive me to the airport this morning. Glad I got there early because TSA was very interested in my round canister of car magnet mah Jongg card that I use for teaching. Apparently the X-ray machine can not see through a big wound up magnetic sign. Once they took it out of the mailing tube I carry it in they were fine, except now all those TSA agents want to learn Mah Jongg.

Thankfully our plane was on time because I had a very tight connection. I was sitting up front and when we landed in Atlanta at B-7 and I had to get to F-3, I knew it was going to be a run. I went fast and got to the gate with a half hour to go before take off.

They had already boarded the people in the gate. I was worried that all the overhead space would be taken, but apparently that was not the worry I should have had.

I walked up to the gate and they had this photo recognition software, so you didn’t even have to show your boarding pass. The machine did not recognize me. The gate agent asked for my passport. Another couple from my RDU flight came up behind me and got right on. I stood aside while they searched for me.

“Here is my boarding pass and seat assignment.”

“You aren’t on this flight.”

“What do you mean I’m not on this flight?”

“No one named Lange.”

The gate agent called over the manager. She looked and said, “We rebooked you on a later flight.”

“Why? It’s a half hour before take off and I am here.”

“We didn’t think you were going to make it.”

“But you didn’t rebook the other people on my flight from RDU who arrived at the gate after me and just got on.”

“Someone is in your seat.”

“Yes, MY seat. So they can be moved or taken off. You had no right to give my seat away this far ahead of time.”

They agreed and gave me paper boarding pass and told me to get on the plane.

As I boarded I mentioned to the flight attendants up front that there might be someone in my seat and explained what happened. The male attendant jokingly said, “Feel free to knock them around a little.”

I responded, “I won’t do that.” And he quickly said, “Please don’t. It was a joke.”

“I got that, but people do it nowadays.”

I looked down the aisle and could see the person sitting in my seat. “Would you mind telling her she is in my seat, I think it would go over better coming from you.”

The flight attendant agreed and moved them back to their middle seat they were supposed to be in two rows up. I am not sure why she got moved in the first place. But I got my original seat.

Thankfully it was an uneventful hour and thirty-nine minutes down here and Ruth E. was at the airport to pick me up.

All good in the Bahamas!

Today’s Emergencies

I am not a person who normally misplaces things. I tend to be very regular in my organization of all things in the house and since I don’t do major reorganizations, where things are put are in my long term memory. I do keep a list of things I hide and where I have hidden them because if it is a new hiding place I might forget. Hidden items are different from everyday items.

Today I was packing for my work trip to the Bahamas. I know, it sounds bougie, but I am the teacher, not a guest.

I went to get my passport from the drawer I have kept it in for 30 years. I opened the drawer, which is packed with other slightly important stuff, but not as important as the passports. It was not there. Since we keep all our passports together in the same black case it is usually easy to spot amongst the folders of white papers.

I opened the similar drawer on the other side to see if it was in there. It wasn’t. I opened and rummaged through nine drawers in total and could not find the case. I had a sick feeling in my stomach, well I’ve had a sick feeling all week, it just got a little worse.

I called to Russ, who thankfully was home. Did he have the passports? No, they are in the drawer. No, they are not. He came down to the room with nine drawers and rummaged around.

Did we take the passports to Maine? It may sometimes feel like a different country, but no, we were able to legally enter the state without our passports. I asked if by chance they were in his brief case.

I went to the closet of all things travel, bags, and packing cubes and power converters and hats you only wear on vacation. I went through all the carry on bags. Nothing.

Russ had given up in the room of drawers. So I went back and looked through the shelves. I reopened the original drawer in hopes of it magically appearing. No, but when I shut the drawer it would not close all the way. The drawer was hitting something inside, in the back.

I called to Russ with the urgency of June Cleaver, needing Ward to open a jar. He came back and with the aid of a flashlight spotted the passport case in the back of the cabinet. It took quiet a lot of doing to figure out how to remove the drawer, which we never actually did, but Russ did get it to come out enough that he was able to snake a long fingered hand in and retrieved the passport case.

These kind of artificial emergencies I just don’t need this week. Especially since Shay threw up something gross and very unusual for her and I took her to the vet for a $500 consult with X-rays and ultra sound to find out her organs and systems are all fine. Next week has got to be better.

Avoidance is Self Care

I have thankfully been very busy the last three days. I taught morning class in Burlington and a night class in Raleigh. This did not leave me much time to look at social media, or watch TV or read the news, which is the best thing I could do. I did stop in Carrboro between classes today and had lunch with my friends Jan and Deanna.

They feel the same way I do about Tuesday’s outcome and we avoided talking about it, until after lunch. As the subject just started coming up I stood up and said I had to go. I could have stayed another five minutes, but at this point I am not ready to handle those feelings.

So I just enjoyed my students, who also used my class as avoidance. It was nice to feel joy over winning a new game. I came home to sweet Shay. Ever the optimist, she wants to snuggle no matter what happened during the day. I am going to take her lead and just snuggle. No TV, no looking at the news on my phone. This is what self care looks like right now.

Keep Being Good People

I got home from teaching last night at 10. Things weren’t looking good. Carter texted that she had a great day working the polls. The veteran polling ladies who have been doing it for years told her she a beacon of positivity. She was pumped from doing it even though it was a very long day. I hate for the light of that might be snuffed out. My heart breaks for the country we have made for young women.

I made the decision to take a big sleeping aid and get one last good nights sleep before I had to face reality. I woke up this morning to news that was no better in the light of day.

I am in shock. I don’t know who we are as Americans, but for this child of the 60’s it is a different America. Life has to go on and I had to get up and go to work. Not a word was said in my class this morning. No one brought up the subject. Since I didn’t know these women before yesterday I have no idea if they were happy or sad, except plenty of them were wearing black.

Tonight’s class are a much younger group of women. Many of whom made it clear yesterday they voted for Kamala. I hope they will be OK tonight.

Right now I just wish I could go to sleep, but life must go on. Hug your kids, take a walk, eat healthy food, be kind to one another. We don’t have to change who we are. Keep being good people.

Democracy Is Up to Us

When I was a young 20 something I don’t remember voting. I lived in Washington DC and since most people who lived in DC actually came from somewhere else most were not voters there. We had no congressional representation that had a vote, so it seemed pointless to me at the time. I now realize the error of my ways.

Thankfully I raised a better daughter than I was. Carter is working as a poll worker, not watcher, but actual worker, in Boston today. She had to report for work at 6:00 am this morning and is working until 9:00pm. I am so proud that she is participating in the running of democracy.

Claire, who has voted at this precinct many times before, said Carter would add to the diversity of the normal poll workers there as in the past they were older African American Woman who ran the polls. I do know that there is at least one man working this year because Carter got paired with him for one of her jobs.

We all know that our most important job as a citizen is to vote. I hope you have already done it. I have said this in the last few elections, but it is true again, “This is the most important election in your life.”

Perhaps seeing a Carter welcoming you at your polling place will spur people to do the right thing. I think she is well named.

A Tale of Two Birthdays

I had two birthday celebrations today. One was for my friend Nancy. A tiny group gathered to needlepoint and have cake in celebration of her birthday coming on Wednesday. Nancy does not like Chocolate cake. I was the cake volunteer so I made her a triple layer vanilla cake with raspberry filling and vanilla Swiss buttercream. It was a work of love and a lovely afternoon with friends.

I was home just a bit before Jan picked me up to go join a cast of hundreds to surprise Holley as today is her actual 64th birthday. Friends gathered on the street each picking up a candle and a giant sparkler. Our plan was to first sing, “When You’re 64,” then Happy Birthday, followed by an original song about Holley written by Anne Eberdt.

Holley had came out in her wheel chair in a hot pink jacket, with her family, to witness the outpouring of love. We sang the first song, the best that we could. Did better with Happy Birthday and then had to light our sparklers. That was a little harder than we anticipated. Eventually we got them all lit and sang the the original song to the tune of “take me out to the ball game.” Then we cheered.

We needed to cheer so that we didn’t cry. Holley’s husband Paul spoke and thanked us and then Holley typed a couple of messages of love which were read to us. Holley asked for us to all stand behind her for one group photo.

We stood in the street in the dark, hugging each other. Happiness and sadness were all tangled up together.

It was the tale of two very different birthdays. You never know how many birthdays you are going to get. Celebrate them all.

It’s That Time Of Year

I’m not talking about election time. It’s “give my father-in-law the Christmas gift lists” time of year. I know it is coming every year, but somehow I am ways blind sided. He asks Russ what I want. He asks me what Russ wants. He also asks what Carter wants.

You would think I would keep a running list so that at the drop of a hat I could produce a list of nice, but not too expensive gift ideas. My Father-in-law loves giving gifts. He likes to buy them, wrap them, and send them.

The things I want this year no one can buy. The right outcome for all the elections and no drama about who won. The end of homelessness, and hunger. For everyone to have a social network of real life friends who people see in person often. Cures for all the illnesses my friends have and the return of their health and lives. A cooling of the planet just enough to end climate change. The return of kindness and an end of divisiveness. Civics to return to school curriculums and a return to the goal of an educated population being a good thing. A belief in science and facts. And a return to honesty and stop fleecing the poor sheep who know no better.

My list could go on and on, but none of these things are what my FIL is looking for. So what am I to tell him? I really like a needlepoint gift certificate, but he has tired of that gift. I am open to suggestions. What have you recently purchased or been given that you love? What about for your husband? I need ideas!

“It Warms My Heat”

Tonight was Holley’s Studio 64 Birthday party! As my most sparkly and disco loving friend it was only appropriate that we celebrate with her this way. I, in no way have the sparkly wardrobe required to be a friend of Holley’s so I am ever thankful she keeps me around all these years.

I am thankful that she too is around. ALS is the most awful disease, and Holley is a champ. Talking was Holley’s thing and to be robbed of her voice has been cruel. I miss hearing her say, “Hi, Honey.” But I still hear it in my head every time I see her.

Now Holley “talks” to us with her phone, typing out her thoughts. Sometimes the typing is slightly off. Tonight when Jan and I were saying our goodbyes and I was leaning down to give Holley’s frail little body a big hug, I whispered how much I adore and love her. She typed a tiny message, “It warms my heat.” All the friends standing with us all got a big laugh. It may have been a slip of an unsure finger, but it was funny, as Holley is and always has been a great wit.

All her family was dressed in their disco finery. There were sequence of many sizes. She typed, “Paul will be finding these forever.” I figure I will never be able to look at a sequence and not think of Holley. I guess I better go buy some sequenced clothes, it’s never too late to be like Holley. The world is lucky to have her for 64 bright and shiny years.

Soup’s On

I was with my friends Christy and Mary Lloyd this morning. We got on the subject of it being November and that means soup to us. None of us cared that it was 80°. It’s soup month by the calendar, not the thermometer.

As I had nothing prepared for dinner I texted Russ and asked him if he was OK with soup. His response that he had left over Chinese food told me he wasn’t thrilled with the idea of having soup for dinner, but he was being a good egg about it.

I considered all my soup choices, but went with Avgolemono, Greek chicken, rice and lemon soup. It is a quick and light soup that I love. I also thought it would be nice to have for lunch this week.

Given the weather this was a choice that did not scream fall, so it does not fulfill my fall soup desire. I will wait for actual cold weather to make something heartier. If it were up to me I would have soup everyday. Wait, what am I saying, it is up to me for lunch.

I guess I need to get back into making soup once a week so I have it around.

Halloween is Not My Holiday

When Carter was little and I could make her costume without her wanting to have a say in it, I was all into Halloween. It was my creative outlet to sew, draw or craft up some fabulous costume for her. She was a dragon fly, or a garden or scrapbook made out of cloth with pages that turned of family photos printed on the fabric. As she got older and had a say I turned into the purchaser of the materials and eventually she just did everything herself.

Now that she is not living at home I am completely disinterested in Halloween. For my own good there is no candy in this house. Our House will be dark, hidden behind the gigantic magnolia grove which completely hides our house even if the lights were on. Walking down our long walkway to a dark house where old people live will be way too scary for any little trick or treaters. Without a lit pumpkin or at least a porch light on, why would they ever waste the walk up our hill and down our walkway?

Instead I am busy painting Christmas ornaments for the new Christmas tree I am adding to the Sunroom this year. Every year I craft one new Christmas decoration. This year I will have three and any of my guests in December who can figure out where all three are will win a dollar.

Painting these ornament takes a while because I can only do part of one and then have to let it dry before I can add the other side or the new color. I have been working on them a hour or two over the last three days and I am hardly done with two of the 40 I plan on making. The deadline I have artificially set for myself is to have them done by the time Carter comes home for Thanksgiving.

I am teaching a bunch between now and then and am leaving the country for work for six days so I am going to have to keep cranking. Not tonight after the sun goes down though. The house must remain dark and silent. I can’t risk a ringing door bell.

Ina Garten’s Hairdo

My name in Carter’s phone is Ina Garten. We look somewhat alike and we both love to cook and teach people things. So when Carter told me she was listening to Ina’s memoir, Be Ready When the Luck Happens and suggested I should listen to it, so I did.

Outside of our hairdo and coloring I never thought I was much like Ina. I have admired her for a long time, but she is a more soft spoken person than I could ever be.

I started listening to her book, read by her, which is comforting. Her back ground could not be more different from mine, even though we grew up fairly near each other. She came from a Jewish family (which I might have come from in another life.) in Brooklyn, who eventually moved to Stamford, CT. Her parents were abusive, even though her surgeon Father appeared respectable. They had no confidence in Ina and belittled her quite a lot. I had a father who did the opposite, always telling me I could do anything and that I was better than I actually was.

The one similarity is our mothers both did not believe in feeding the children and never once had a carb in the house. Maybe that is why we both became cooks.

Ina’s more scientific about her cooking. She would test and retest recipes over and over. She said she never served something for a dinner party she did not pre-test first. I am quite the opposite. I never test anything in advance and can almost never recreate something exactly as I had made it before because I cook by the seat of my pants. That is also the way I ran my catering business.

I remember one customer calling me wanting me to cook beef ribs like they did in Texas. I had never even eaten beef ribs, let alone cook them. This was before the internet so I had to find a recipe or wing it. I winged it. The customer loved them. To me they seemed like something out of the Flintstones, giant bones too big for a plate.

One similarity is Ina likes a challenge to keep her creative juices flowing. I am the same way, but where we differ is I feel like I can do anything that I really want to do, even if I have never done it before and have no experience doing it. My attitude has always been, if I can pay a person to do something for me then I can probably learn to do it myself. This is especially true when it comes to making things.

Listening to Ina’s book has been delightful. She is an incredibly hard worker and has a lot of great insights about running her businesses, which are very successful. But outside of our hairdos, and the fact that we both were in the food business, I find I am not like her at all. I really like her, but she is just much nicer than I ever will be and just not quite as irreverent or funny.

It Would Takes Weeks to Read All This

I spent six hours today driving to class, teaching and driving home. That was six hours I didn’t look at my text messages or email on my phone. I got home and looked and I had 24 texts and 265 emails all from political operatives. Some asking for money, some asking for advice, all wondering if I had voted, which I had 10 days ago. Some just pointing out the obvious.

I had requests from candidates in far off states I have never been too. Some for candidates in my own state, but for whom I can’t vote for because I don’t live in their district and some from candidates I would never in a million years vote for because they are the most vile human beings who ever walked the earth.

One who shall go unnamed, suggests that a pregnant woman’s life is not her own. If it is between her life and the life of the unborn fetus the fetus is more important and she can just die. To that I suggest if a woman dies due to lack of health care brought on by the government not allowing her medical attention, then the father of that child should die too since he contributed to the death of that woman by impregnating her. Let’s see how many men like that idea. But I digress.

My point of all this is I just don’t know what I am going to do with my time after November 5 when I assume I will not be receiving all these texts and emails. I could fill two or three days if I decided to read all of these things from just one day.

Every once in a while I will read some of the outrageous ones. It’s best to read them out loud and scream the sentences that are in all caps or in red. I liked the olden days when politicians had to pay to print and mail things because at least they took a little more care with the copy when it had to get printed.

I have stopped watching TV so I don’t have any ads, but sadly I still need to look at my texts, what if their is a lost dog in the neighborhood?

Order out of Chaos

I was in Smithfield today teaching. Russ sent me an instagram link and on my way home calls and asks me if I saw it. I told him of course I didn’t see it, I was teaching two classes. So he tells me all about it.

Julia Roberts was on Steven Colbert and when Steven asked her what she was doing these days she said, “I play Mah Jongg with my friends.” Some people in the audience clap as they too were mah Jongg players. Steven found this amazing. He asked if she could explain it to him and she said absolutely not, but then went on to give the best explanation.

She said is was making order of out random chaos. Order out of chaos. That is what I teach. I know that my beginner students look at me like I have two heads when I tell them to have faith and keep at it because I know that we all have the capacity to make order out of chaos.

Now if Mah Jongg players could just run the country we would be in better shape. We are calm and patient and have faith, all while being kind to each other. Maybe all leaders should learn Mah Jongg.

This is a Job?

When I tell strangers my job is teaching Mah Jongg I already get questions. Somehow I have lucked into doing something I love with people I adore as a job.

Teaching classes is understandable as work, but today I had a better gig. Last spring my friend Tracey called to ask if I would be the surprise at a Mah Jongg garden party. Well, Yes.

Tracy was very patient waiting for an available date, which was today. She did a great job keeping my appearance a secret for so many months.

So I drove to Winston-Salem this afternoon and joined in her party. I had taught about half of her guests before, either at Roaring gap or in Winston, or the beach, but the other half had no idea what they were in for.

Tracey asked me to give a little talk about strategy, which you know I could do for hours. Then we had play time. Each table was rotated for a game at my table. It was the big challenge to beat me. Some excited players did beat me, which makes me very happy for them.

Tracey was the kindest hostess and it was a most lovely afternoon at her beautiful home. Doing a job as a surprise guest is great work if you can get it. Always love going to Winston. Thanks, Tracey.

Join me at High Hampton

One day I got a call from Mary Celeste Beall from Black Berry Farm. (I had been wanting to visit Black berry farm for years.) She was calling because she recently has taken over High Hampton in Cashiers, NC, a fine old mountain resort and redone it. She was inquiring about my teaching Mah Jongg at High Hampton. It was a lovely conversation and I agreed to come for two long weekends. The first will be Jan. 30-Feb. 4. I will be teaching both Beginners and Beyond Beginners.

There is no better place to learn the fun game than a beautiful resort. Class will be three hours each day and the rest of the time students are free to enjoy all the activities of the resort. I think this makes a great girls or Mother/daughter trip, but men are always welcome and make great players.

I went on the High Hampton’s Website today and discovered my class was the home page for the resort. You don’t have to stay at High Hampton to come to class, so if you have a mountain house near Cashiers you can just sign up for class.

Mah Jongg lessons make the perfect Christmas gift for that someone in your life who already has everything. I will also be there again in April if Spring is more your season.

Thankfully High Hampton was not hurt in Hurricane Helene. I am looking forward to going and enjoying all the mountains have to offer. I hope to see some friendly faces there.

For information http://www.highHampton.com

For the Love of Nancy

When I was a girl I needlepointed. As it was an expensive hobby I didn’t keep it up, but I never lost the skill. Then one year I noticed a friend’s needlepoint Christmas ornaments and was wild for them. She introduced me to Nancy at Chapel Hill Needlepoint. That was over 12 years, over 300 needlepoint projects and a billion dollars ago and I love it more today.

One of the best things about needlepoint are the friends I have made stitching. Nancy is the center of my needlepoint universe of which there are many satellites orbiting.

One great friend I have made through Nancy is Kate. Nancy is Kate’s person. Last winter Kate went with Nancy to a needlepoint trade show. While there Kate secretly talked to a canvas designer and asked her to produce 12 ornaments about needlepoint and Nancy in particular. Kate was creating the 12 days of needlepoint. When she got the canvases she asked eleven of the most faithful of stitchers if we would each stitch one ornament for Nancy.

Of course no one said no. We had two weeks to do it with specific instructions about colors and sparkle threads, as Nancy loves sparkle. I got the number five which was scissors as I love scissors. After stitching we turned the canvases into Kate who then had them finished into ornaments. Kate bought a white tree for displaying them.

As Nancy’s birthday is in two weeks Kate secretly searched Nancy’s calendar to find a time we could gather to give her this surprise gift. Her store normally closes at four on Friday’s. I arrived at three, acting like I was just there to pick up some finishing. The store was packed with so many friends, all stitching and some other customers who just happened to be shopping.

So at four most everyone got up to leave the store to get the random customers to leave too. Nancy asked me to stay and talk and Kate suggested we could play mah Jongg. Nancy and I sat down at the table and not five minutes later all the stitching friends reappeared at the door carrying twelve colorful gift bags, cupcake boxes and other goodies.

Nancy did not know what was going on and we screamed, “Happy Birthday.”

Nancy opened each bag and exclaimed about the beauty of each ornament, a little overwhelmed by the extravagance of this very personal and loving gift. After she had opened them all Kate told the whole complicated story of making this gift happen, which involved lots of secrets and covert actions.

As stitchers we all really appreciate when someone stitches something for us. We know the amount of work and love that goes into a needlepoint gift. So to give Nancy 12 ornaments all about her was a big expression of love. It never would have happened if it wasn’t for Kate as she bought all the canvases for us to stitch.

Strange Sighting

I woke up this morning a little sad because it is my friend Hugh’s Birthday today. Hugh left the earth in February and I still think of him as here. I didn’t see him in person often, but our deep bond still existed and he will always remain one of my favorite people. It’s funny how I know all the birthdays of my long time friends, even ones I don’t see much, and even those who are no longer alive.

I had to go to get a chest X-ray today because I have had walking pneumonia four times this year. I wasn’t really worried that I might have some terrible illness, until I got to the radiologist and had to sit waiting for an hour and a half in a very full waiting room. I mostly played a game on my phone and the longer I sat, the more I wondered what terrible thing they might find in my chest X-ray.

I had a little panic that I have so many classes scheduled and if I needed some kind of treatment what would I do? I looked up from my phone at one point and across the room I saw an older man who was sitting at a right angle to me so I saw him in profile. I did a quick double take because he was a big, fair-skinned, freckled bald man, wearing silver rimmed rectangular glasses, in a blue work shirt and wide red suspenders. He was the spitting image of my father.

I immediately teared up. I couldn’t help myself. I knew he was not my father, who has been gone three years, but he not only looked like him he was wearing an outfit I saw my father wear often. I took my reading glasses off to wipe the tears, that would not stop, away. I looked up and the man was gone.

It was not a Large waiting room. The man I saw was no more than 12 feet away from me. The only way in or out of the room was via the two elevators that opened right into the waiting room. No nurse had come out and called anyone’s name and no elevator had opened or shut.

I have had not visions of my father since his passing, but I have had dreams with him in them, just as I have had a bunch of dreams where Hugh made an appearance. I took this sighting of my “father “ as a sign I was going to be OK. Why OK and not that I had something terribly wrong with me? I just figured he would not be the one to give me a premonition of bad news. Not his style.

I had my X-ray and did some errands before my class tonight. After class I checked my email before I got home. The results from my X-ray were in. All good. My lungs were clear and my heart looked good. Still a mystery about the walking pneumonia, but at least that’s not fatal.

I’m certain there are many people who look like my Dad. This easily could just be some old man, but it sure was strange. The other thing is I haven’t just started crying thinking about my Dad being gone. So the quickness of my tears really caught me by surprise. I really felt like I was being given a message. Glad it was good news. It couldn’t be bad news on Hugh’s birthday. Not his style either.

Fix It Season

Some people have seasons that follow the weather. Warm fall, cool fall, warm winter, cool winter, one cold week, one warm week, another cold week, the daffodils are up in February week, ice storm week. You get the picture. Some people divide their year up into seasons that are tied to their children’s schedules. Buying school supplies month, worrying about back to school week, finally back to school week, school parent night week – which feels like a month, fall break — what the hell we just started school week, too many school parties week, project week- going and buying expensive cardboard at Micheal’s and doing the child’s project yourself week. And so on.

I never lived by the weather as my seasonal break down and Carter has been a grown up long enough that I don’t ever have to think about the kid seasons again. My seasons are totally different.

I have the hiding in Maine season, followed by easing back into Durham life season, which involves not really unpacking all my Maine stuff and spending a week sorting mail, now I am in the fix it season, where I finally get around to calling all the professionals to fix plumbing issues, window cleaning, gutter and roof cleaning and all the other chores that have been round since spring cleaning season. The fix it season must be done in time for the holiday extravaganza season, which is preceded by the holiday party menu planning season.

The fix it season is the most critical as there is a hard start to the extravaganza season, which also needs the invitation season to be worked in before.

I have already had inquiries about the extravaganza calendar from those expecting to participate in one or more extravaganzas. This year the extravaganza season is a week shorter due to late Thanksgiving. That’s good and bad news. That means that the gift creation season is a week longer, but the extravaganzas are going to happen closer together. The rub on that means the cooking season is shorter, requiring better advanced planning.

Thankfully the broken refrigerator from the Maine Season, forced the premature cleaning out of the garage freezer so there is room for advance cooking containment during the shortened extravaganza season, but requires a push forward of the menu planning season to accommodate the search for freezable recipes.

I see a major overlap in this year’s seasons prior to January one. That is when the purge season begins.

So just to repot I am fully in Fix It season today and plan to start one or more sections of extravaganza planing season tomorrow. I am at a loss about gift creation and welcome all suggestions.

Some Pay Back

At last the mother daughter team of Ruby Freeman and Shaye Moss, of Georgia election workers defamed by Rudy Giuliani are going to get a small portion of the money he owes them for defaming them.

A court in NYC has ordered Giuliani to turn over his NYC apartment, his watch collections, old Mercedes and a jersey signed by Joe DiMaggio, along with jewelry, TV’s and furniture. It won’t come close to the $148 Million the court found him guilty for, but it is something. Who knows how much the lawyers are going to take. I think it would be fun for the women to go to NYC and spend a night in the apartment before it gets sold.

We have to hold people accountable for lying and ruining innocent people’s lives for political gain. Of course no one is coming to Giuliani’s rescue. The person he did this for is never going to cough up a cent to save him.

I hope people will learn doing dirty work for someone else is never going to pay off. There has to be a day of reckoning And the little people always pay. Poor fools. What did you think was going to happen? At least you weren’t pushed down the stairs.

At Last, No Mats

Poor Shay. Prior to today her last professional grooming was in early August before our trip north. She looked cute all the way through Maine, but by the time we got home she was desperate for a hair cut. Her words, not mine.

I looked at her calendar and turns out she did not have a grooming appointment. I thought I had made them for the whole year, but turned out when I made them in January I only could do it up until August. By the time I called her groomer not an appointment was available for the rest of the year.

I gave her a home grooming, which I liken to a Toni home permanent of the 1960s. A look no one endorsed. The real problem is I just cut the top and not the hairs close to her body. She went for her annual check up and they said she’s healthy, except for that hair cut.

Thankfully her vet knew of a groomer who was taking new clients. A nice woman on Carter Street. I took that as a good sign. I drove Shay over this morning and Rae, the groomer, came out To the car to meet Shay and we talked a few minutes. Shay willing went back with her and in less than two hours I got a call Shay was done.

She is clean and mat free. All her hair is short as we had to start new before Shay could go back to a cute style, but at least nothing is curling too tightly like that Toni Perm.

I asked Rae how far in advance I needed to call to get another appointment and she said two weeks. WOW. We might have a new groomer. The best part is Shay hated going to the groomer for the whole day. To get in and get out makes her a happy girl, which make me a happy Mom. I love a doodle, but the up keep on hair is a real thing. I’ll take it over shedding any day, especially if I have a reasonable groomer.

Gratitude and Grief

My friend Holley has been living with ALS for more than two years. Holley has been a trooper through this most harrowing journey. Her sparkle and effervescence have remained publicly, but she is still human and has to face so much.

Holley is my age and I can’t help but feel robbed of yet another friend my age, as I lost my 45 and 40 year long friends Stori and Hugh, in the last little bit.

In the most Holley way she invited her friends to come to a guided gathering called Holley’s Gratitude and Grief circle. It was a chance for us to discuss our love for Holley and the situation. In the most Holley way we did a little arts and crafts session to express our gratitude. Then we were invited to stand up and talk. We all want to just about Holley to Holley.

The common theme is that Holley has always made every person she has ever met that they were the most important person in the world. It is a quality I recognize as my father was the same way, but Holley is always nice.

You can imagine that as we were each talking about and to Holley we shed more than a few tears. Although she can can no longer talk, she still communicates with her phone talking for her. Holley thanked us and gave us each a card she made. We all know there is no way out, but Holley has done everything possible for us to feel all the feelings, both grief and gratitude.

I am so grateful to call Holley a friend as she has thousands, but I also feel the grief at what comes next. With my friend’s Stori and Hugh I did not have any time to say goodbye. I am thankful to have the time to leave nothing unsaid with Holley. She is my hero. She inspires so many. Thank you dear, sweet sparkly Holley.

Do Your Civic Duty

We don’t like to take any chances when it comes to voting. You never know if you might get hit by a car and be hold up in the hospital on Election Day. So we went for early voting today. It is so easy to do. In Durham you can go to any early voting site. They will have the right ballot for you. We did not have to wait in line, because they had so many poll workers. There was a full house of people voting and more coming in as we were going out.

Carter is working at the polls in her new neighborhood in Boston this year. I am so proud of her to be doing her civic duty.

Please go vote early in person if your state has that as an option. Our ballots today got tabulated just as they would if it were Election Day, just no data about who the votes are for will be released until after polls close on the fifth.

Make a plan to vote and don’t think for one minute your vote won’t matter. This year more than ever it counts.

The Nick Saban of Mah Jongg

My friend Ruth E. and I decided we really like all the friends in Houston as they were the most hospitable group. We stayed in a fairy tale house in a fairy tale neighborhood. Sometimes Fairy Tales are scary and so many house were Uber decorated for Halloween. We are talking dozens and dozens of pumpkins at each house. Scores of those giant skeletons and giant dog skeletons. Hundreds of smaller skeletons, spiders and ghosts.

I guess if your house is 20,000 or 30,000 square feet the number of pumpkins is proportional. I can’t imagine what it is like on Halloween night. Then again, there are giant walls and fences around so many houses I am not sure if trick or treaters can get in.

Our hostess, who had one of the most fabulous houses in the neighborhood drove us around and one street away from hers was one called Lazy Lane. Lazy Lane had the biggest collections of mansions on perfectly manicured lots all with gates, and guards in guard houses.

Talk about a boring job. Sitting in a little box and waiting for someone to come over. Sometimes you couldn’t see the house, maybe just a top of a roof. Even a peek of a peak was enough to tell me I was glad I would not have to reroof one of those houses. It would cost as much as my whole house.

But don’t judge a person by their roof. My students were so sweet, fun and kind. One of the best was someone who couldn’t even come to class, but had taken from me in the Bahamas. She came to the cocktail party and we caught up. Sadly she did come to dinner with us.

At 10:30 last night she texted she was running over in her PJ, to bring me a jar of a cbd cream called be chill. She said it changed her life when she rubbed it on her feet and legs. Thankfully the security guard let her in at that late hour.

It was delivered to my room as I was also already in my PJ. I rubbed some of the special cream on my tired feet and legs from standing up all day. They did tingle. I am not sure how long that sensation lasted as I passed out right away. Sadly I had to leave the jar with her friend to return to her because it was too big to go in my carry on only bags and I didn’t want it thrown away by the TSA.

I am hoping this is not my last trip to Houston. It was pretty magical. I was paid the highest compliment by my host who hails from Louisiana, when his grown up son stopped by this morning. He introduced me to his son as the Nick Saban of Mah Jongg. Since the family considers coach Saban the goat, his son practically bowed for me upon his father’s proclamation. How can you not love that?

Glorious Day

Such a wonderful day of fabulous students, hosts and friends and food. I am dead tired from teaching a five hour class, going to a cocktail party, then out to dinner. It all was so great, but the highlight was meeting our hosts sweet new first granddaughter and her parents.

Our day started with the most delicious breakfast and great conversation. Our hosts could teach royalty how to entertain. There is no need that have not anticipated and provided generously for.

The club holding the lessons did a perfect job setting everything up for this class of experienced players. I knew about half of them from the Bahamas and so loved getting to know the news one. Everyone worked hard and were such polite and attentive students.

We enjoyed a yummy lunch during our break and it was wonderful to catch up with friends who are also friends of my Suzanne and Steve. Texas may be big, but everybody seems to know everybody else.

After class we returned to the home of our hostess and got to meet one of her sweet daughters, her husband and their new 12 week old daughter. She was the best holy baby and it was fun to lie on the swinging beds on the screened porch and play with her.

The rest period was much too short because we had to change for our next party which was billed as drinks and a conversation about mah Jongg. It was drinks and just conversation. I was so happy that one friend who could not make the class did come to the party and we sat and gabbed.

From drinks we went to dinner and had fantastic Mexican food which was probably the best Mexican I have ever had. By 9:00 I was thoroughly exhausted and my hostess recognized it and brought me home. I am not fully ensconced in my luxurious suite.

It’s going to be sad to leave tomorrow, but not until I have had another day with these great people.

We have been feted, spoiled and entertained. No one can say I don’t have the best job ever.

It’s Houston, So It Has to Be Fabulous

Today was the get to Houston day. It was easy. My friends Ruth E. and Frank were traveling with me. Frank did all the heavy lifting when it came to overhead bins and we had an uneventful and on time trip to Houston.

Houston where everything is bigger, the airport, the traffic, the motels beside the highways. Frank drove with Ruth E. doing an excellent job navigating as we had to make not one, but two different left exits on highways within mere tenths of miles of entering said highways on the right.

Cars let Frank merge every time as if they could tell he is such a nice guy and they would want to let him in. This would never happen in Boston.

We arrived at the beautiful home were we are guests. The gardens and the landscaping are so exquisite and we were given a full tour as it was the absolutely perfect weather day. Then we had the house tour and by then I was just exhausted. That was fine because there was an hour to refresh before we were going to dinner to meet some other wonderful friends.

I unpacked and rested a little, but not until I had studied the paper art on my bathroom toilet tissue. As an accomplished lover of doing paper crafts I might be able to recreate this bow design, but probably not to this perfection. While’s studying the toilet tissue I noticed a button next to the roll, so I pushed it. It was the control button for the fan. Brilliant. You know you need the fan while sitting on the throne. Doesn’t it make sense to put the button there?

It’s a perfect world here. I am not sure I am going to be able to go home to Durham and look at my lawn and not feel shame. But now I have to rest to be ready for class tomorrow. It’s Houston, so it has to be fabulous.

Clothes Don’t Make the Woman

I’m off to Houston tomorrow to teach a class. A wonderful group of women have invited me to their club. Along with the invitation to teach, they are hosting me and having dinners and parties. Today my friend told me the dress code for the club and how fancy one restaurant we are going to is.

I am a carry-on only traveler. This means the shoes I usually bring are limited to the pair I wear and one pair in my suitcase. I also usually bring one outfit a day. Perhaps an extra dinner outfit, but no more.

My cousin Meredith, who lives in Houston, describes Houston as Texas Fancy. This is in direct conflict with my North Carolina casual. Now add the issue that when I am teaching I am standing up for six hours in a row, so shoe comfort is the most important issue.

Last consideration is the weather. Today it was 95° there. Thankfully it will be cooler tomorrow. Nonetheless I am always at a loss what to wear in hot fall weather. I feel like my summer clothes feel out of place as far into the fall as we are.

So as I picked out my clothes I balanced all these issues and pray that I distract the class with brilliance so no one cares what I am wearing. I don’t care what I wear I just don’t want to embarrass my hosts.

The Line Has Been Crossed

I saw a truly disturbing political ad, worse than I have ever seen in my life. That is saying something considering that in 2016 I saw an ad in another state that said, “let’s bring (southern state name here) back to a time between the revolutionary war and the civil war.”

Today’s ad had a disclaimer from ABC where I saw the ad, it said, “we are not allowed to refuse to run ads, but this station does not condone the content of this ad which might be upsetting.” This disclaimer ran before and after the ad.

It was photos of mutilated babies and I will not go into it further, nor name the candidate who deserves no attention. But politicians and their lying have gone too far. I watch ads where the clips and they way they are cut are clearly mis-portraying their opponents positions, but this ad was different.

We need to change the laws about what can be shown on free public airways. We should not need disclaimers before ads. No ad should be so graphically disgusting to need a disclaimer both before and after the ad runs.

We only have 22 more days of ads. Please vote. We must end this madness. Only 66% of eligible voters came out in 2020 and we knew how important that election was. Make a plan, vote early in person if you can. Don’t let anything stop you.

Russ’ New Head Shot

Russ asked me if I would take a new head shot of him for some work thing he needed it for. Turns out his official head shot was 12 years old. I gladly agreed and we went out in the front yard and I snapped six shots, all great. It took all of 30 seconds.

I looked at his old head shot which was good, but I think he looks even better now. He just turned the big 60 and is so cute. I am biased. I do like his beard, but don’t tell him that. (I like when it is well groomed.)

I have to say that I really like his outfit, which I picked out for him this summer. Russ is the king of wearing clothes until they are too tattered for me to repair. He needs new Nantucket Red shorts, but does not like the price so the two old pairs keep getting reworn. No one much sees him in them, except the neighbors who pass him walking Shay.

Thankfully I didn’t have to take his head shot in old clothes. That old adage, clothes make the man is only partially true, but it makes an easier photo.

Do Better Red Cross

I’ve been involved with Non-profits for most of my life. I have raised money, sat on boards, chaired committees, been board chair, volunteered, auctioneered for events, done training and taught non-profit board workshops. Today I had an absolutely horrible experience as a donor of a non-profit and it was inexcusable.

I have O- blood. O- is the universal donor blood, meaning that it can go to anyone without issue. So if someone comes in the ER and needs blood in an emergency they can be given O- rather than waiting to type their blood and figure out what their exact match is. All blood types are needed, but O- is especially needed. So I get calls every week asking me to donate blood, which I do when I can. (I can’t give every week)

With all the hurricanes Russ decided that it would be good if we gave this week. He made an appointment at our local Red Cross donation center, then told me. I went on the app I have on my phone and by the time I did there were no spots at 8:30 when Russ was going so I took the 11:30 appointment.

I showed up at 11:20 as I am always early. I had done my pre-check on the app and was ready to go. The volunteer at the desk gave me a name tag with 11:30 written on it and I joined the other donors in the chairs awaiting to be called into the little cubicle to discuss my eligibility, as all donors do.

There were two phlebotomists with two donors lying on beds and at least ten people waiting in chairs. There was a very Loud TV playing some movie which honestly was the most annoying thing. I sat and read news on my phone as more and more people checked in.

I sat there for 40 minutes and not one person from the chair waiting area was called into a cubicle or had their blood drawn and the people who were on the beds were still there. It normally takes about 20 minutes to draw the maximum blood they can take.

A woman who was there before me got up to ask the phlebotomist how long it would be. He looked at his computer and mumbled something I could not hear. So I got up and asked. He looked at my name tag and then his computer and said I would get my draw at 2:00. WTF?

“My appointment was at 11:30, I should have been told at check in, (which was ten feet away) that you all are hours behind.”

“I can’t help it,” was his lame excuse.

This is no way to treat donors. This is not the first time I have had an issue with this donation center, but it will be the last.

I ripped my name tag off and handed it to the check in volunteer and said, “Please remove me from the list today.”

I drove home and wrote the Red Cross an email on the donor app. This is no way to treat donors. A little communication goes a long way.

Rested and Recentered

Yesterday was hard, today was easy. Thankfully I do plan some down time and today was it. As badly as I wanted to sleep in, and I had the time, my body woke up at six and said, that’s enough for you. Shay had her check up his morning so I got up and got going before I really had to.

Somehow Shay who is always 22 lbs has lost a tiny amount of weight. She has taken to eating some days and not eating much on others. The Vet did not like this development. I asked if it was Ok to add hamburger or steak to her chicken and kibble. The answer was, “Not really because I want her to get all the nutrients of a dog food. And you would have to be prepared to make hamburger forever.”

All the nutrients of a dog food sounds like a joke. My Vet knows Shay does not like kibble on a good day. We already feed her cooked chicken. Cooking hamburger is no harder. Going to the pet food store and buying every different kind of kibble just to see if she will eat them and then returning them is trouble. So tonight she got steak. If she needs to gain weight we can do that. At 13 years old it seems like she deserves it.

I decided I could just hang out and not vacuum or wash the glass storm doors and Shay snuggled with me.

This afternoon I had a big Mexican Train domino game at my friend Holley’s house with Jan, Theky and two of Holley’s daughters, Penn and Julia. Sadly Renee was not there but she had the best excuse. She was in Texas where her daughter was giving birth to a beautiful baby boy.

Holley is a game lover and Mexican train is a game that does not involve talking. It was a fun afternoon to all be together.

I got home to a beautiful orchid Carter had sent me just as a surprise. What a dear sweet daughter she is. It made my day even sweeter. Dinner with Russ and now I’m back to normal. Amazing how one restful day can recenter you.

Don’t Let Me Control my Calendar

Next time I agree to teach a morning class in one location and a night class in a different location for three days in a row remind me that I am too old to do that. Last week I taught three classes a day for three days, but they were all in the same place.

This week was harder. I would go to work early in the morning. Get home around 1:00 and hang out. Then get back in the car, drive to class at 4:45 and get home at 10. I would be too hyped up from the last class and then need to write. Do a bad job at that and have trouble going to sleep. Just to have to get up six hours later.

Thankfully three days of this is over. I know I have this type of schedule sometime in the future, but when I finish that I am not going to make this mistake again. I do this to myself because so many people want classes and I hate to disappoint them.

Thank goodness I have five days off in a row, before I go to Houston next week. Going to be wild.

Hurricanes are Getting in My Head

Between Helene and Milton the last two weeks have been hell on the places where the hurricanes have hit. My parents were in the middle of building a new house in South Carolina when Hugo hit them dead on. It changed the landscape for a very long time. I remember driving down highway 17 passing miles of trees snapped off at about the 12 foot height, every single one.

It will be a while before we will have an idea of how these two storms have changed the topography since they are so big. But the earth repairs and regrows. The people are changed forever.

I got to thinking about where homeless people go when it is time to evacuate. They hardly have shelter on a good weather day, but what happens to people who have so little. It’s not like you can ride out a hurricane under and overpass.

Who knows exactly how many unhoused people live in the path of the hurricane. How can they evacuate? What about people who live off the grid? I am certain there were plenty of the living in the mountains. Who checked on them?

I have been teaching morning and night this week and will again tomorrow so I have not seen any news. Maybe it’s best for me to not watch what is going on. I still think about it, but I’m not getting the photos in my head. Praying for safety.

Now is Not the Time to be a Science Denier

For the record I have never been a big fan of Florida. Not just the recent very red Florida, but The Florida that feels like nothing is very old or permanent, even if it might be old. The big difference in the nice places and the rest of the place make me uneasy. So in spite of my general dislike of Florida I am praying that everyone in the center of the state has gotten out.

This Milton is going to be a bitch and no one deserves that kind of hit, let alone two in two weeks. Storm surge is a killer and water always wins. Poor Naples has barely gotten over their last big hit and if the storm moves any further south it could happen again. Tampa hasn’t had a storm like this in 100 years, but then again 100 years ago no one much lived there, it was too awful before air conditioning was invented.

The real sucker punch is going to come when it is over because home owners insurance in Florida was already a nightmare with many insurance companies pulling out of the state in the recent past. The state created an insurance company, but the problem with that is it is certainly not collateralized enough when it only insures Florida properties. The risk is not spread out across the country.

If enough homeowners don’t have flood insurance then who knows how Florida is going to recover. It is the same problem with Hurricane Helene. People that live in Mountains don’t think about flood insurance and yet, it was floods that got most of them. The land scape and the futures did a wholesale change. And yet there are still climate change deniers.

I’m not sure getting wiped out by a weather event will change the minds of people who are hard core deniers, but it might be Darwin situation. If you don’t believe in listening to expert advice, or education, or think that by not teaching certain things means they don’t exist, then survival of the fittest might get you. If you listen only to fake news you might not get the information you need to make good decisions. In this case, not making a good decision could lead to your death.

Please, make good decisions and don’t stay in the path of a monster storm. Everyone who ever did stay in hurricanes and survived report afterwards that wished they had heeded the warnings. You have been warned. Just because you never left for any storm before, does not mean that you can survive this one.

Climate scientists are fairly good at giving you advance warnings. Now is not the time to stick to your “anti-science” beliefs. If you think God is going to save you he sent you scientists to tell you to get out. Don’t think God is going to save you beyond this warning. He already told you. Don’t be a Florida Man.

The Great Beyond and Other Questions

I was having a conversation with some friends today that turned slightly to death. Some of us had lost a parent or have an elderly parent who is not well. It didn’t go deep, it was a short part of a happier gathering, but it got me thinking.

I have lost a couple of dear friends in the recent past. People who went too young and unexpectedly or who had an illness, but I wish had more time. It made me start thinking about what I wish would happen when you die and some hopes and questions. Not that I will ever be able to prove how right or wrong I might be, but some based on what I have read from people who have near death experiences.

The idea of going toward the light seems to have a lot of fans. That sounds so much better than going into darkness, so I’ll subscribe to the light version.

Then there is the idea of seeing a loved one who passed before you. I like this idea too, but am wondering if you have a say in who it is? Perhaps a ranked list? I might also like a list of those I would prefer not to greet me upon arrival.

It would be ideal to see a loved one, but any old baggage is forgotten and you only have good memories. It would stink to be confronted by someone and right off have them bring up an old grievance. I tend to forget past misdeeds while I’m on earth, so I certainly don’t want to relive them someplace else.

My big question is about being able to see how my earthly loved ones are still doing. Not in a ghost kind of way, but more like a comforting way. Do I need to discuss a signal system, like Carol Burnet tugging on her earlobe. I know a lot of people think a rainbow might be a sign from someone, but I want something that can’t be explained meteorologically, or would be a really strange coincidence if it happened more than once. It also would have to be something that stood the test of time.

For example sample, I would not like the sign to be, “Every time you got .53¢ in change know I am with you.” Change is definitely going to be going away sometime. I think we could lose pennies in the next decade, at least we should. It shouldn’t be, “if you hear a stranger say ‘fart in a bucket’ then I am with you.” That is a saying only my family, and my friend Carol, says, today. It easily could become a common form of slang any day now so it would lose its impact as a sign. So I am unsure what might be a signal and will have to think on that.

I wonder if famous people on earth get to be regular people in the beyond. It would stink if Elvis would still have to hide out to get any peace. Although I wouldn’t mind putting a couple of famous people on my ranked list of who greets me. I have a few questions for Princess Diana and Ruth Bader Ginsburg. If there is one universal language I would also like to talk to Joan of arc.

Mostly I am wondering about sense of humor in the beyond. I am not sure how I would do if I have to be serious for the rest of millennia. Some of my favorite funny people have passed on and I would like to hear from them how they view the whole next step situation.

There is a lot to wonder about, but I’m not really worried so much as curious. Unfortunately there are not that many beings to interview about this subject. Speaking of beings I really hope that my favorite dogs will greet me when I get there. I also hope that they got to know each other before I get there, and even though they did not live at the same time, they are friends now. I don’t think there is any need to sleep when I get there, but I would like some snuggling with a sleeping puppy.

I have so many questions, but not a lot of fear. Of course I hope to be around longer, but based on the loss of friends I know there is no guarantee. I just hope to see you again, just not soon.

Christmas is Coming

The Best way to keep my mind off the election is too think about Christmas. Decorating for Christmas is my favorite part of the holiday, followed very quickly by having people over to eat so they can enjoy my decorating.

Each year I make at least one new thing that I add to my decorations. Needlepoint ornaments do not count as my one new thing. They are a constant. This has to be something substantial and original. It can be cheeky or serious, it can be a collection or one item, but I must make it.

This summer when I was in Maine I got a number of items that I am going to repurpose into Christmas decor. This weekend while Russ was away I made one of my new items. It was a tinsel wreath covered in wooden Christmas ornaments. It was a lot of work to find the ornaments. Used Christmas ornaments sell quickly and not on the cheep. I can only imagine what my collection is worth.

This wreath was inspired by my sparkly crafty friend Holley Broughton who is a wizard with a glue gun. I asked her advice about making this wreath and she told me that paddle wire was the way to go. She, of course was right.

I could not find a premade tinsel wreath I liked so I bought two wire wreath forms, one slightly smaller than the other and wired them together to make a big enough base. I then wound the tinsel through the wire forms before attaching the wooden ornaments.

Since it is early October I can’t hang this yet so it will live in my paper office where I might continue to add to it until Thanksgiving night when I can officially put it up.

I have a couple more projects to work on, but at least I know I have my one new item of the year ready to go.

Shay’s Least Favorite Day

My Daddy Left me home alone with Mommy. That alone makes me sad. Then Mommy said that we were going to play beauty parlor. I thought that might mean we were going to do her nails, but no. Mommy got the clippers out and knew what that meant.

So before I even had a chance to run and hide Mommy put me up on the kitchen counter. She knew it was too high for me to jump down from, so I stood there shivering. She got the clippers out and put a number 2 guard on them. I had not seen those things since the pandemic.

Apparently Mommy forgot to make my grooming appointments for after Maine and now there are no appointments until January. So I am going to have to at home haircuts for the rest of the year. This is not going to make me happy.

Since Mommy had not precharged the clippers the whole haircut took longer than it should have. Every time she got a good run of hair cut the clippers would stop. While she was giving them a good charge she cut my feet and face with the scissors. Oh the indignity of the whole at home grooming.

It probably took an hour and I knew it was a bad haircut based on the amount of hair on the floor. I did not bother to go look in the mirror. Instead I slunk off to the sunroom and hid under some pillows.

The only good news is she did not also give me a bath or cut my nails. I think that might be coming next week. There is only so much Mommy can handle in one weekend. She knows I am still mad at her because I would not look at her when she wanted to take my picture. Next year she won’t make this mistake and not make grooming appointments well in advance.

Fortnight of Check-ups

Today was my last doctor’s appointment in my fortnight of check ups. Two weeks ago Russ and I got our Covid and flu vaccines. Then I started in on all my checkups, which through some strange happenstance ended up in the same two week period.

It started with my annual GYN visit. After filling in the requisite paperwork, the same one I have been filling out annually for 30 years, I begged my wonderful doctor to please update what postmenopausal women fill out. Question 7. When was your last period? Really? How the hell an I supposed to remember. Look at my chart and you tell me. Question 11. Is there a chance you could be pregnant? Not unless my name is Sarah and I am married to Abraham. Question 13. What is your form of birth control? I wrote, “Old as shit.” My doctor laughed at that one.

While having my exam I learned that I have a very small uterus. Of all the small things to have. I would have preferred a small stomach.

This week I saw my internist. I got questions like, “In the last 12 months had you not had enough to eat.” Please god, can you look at me and tell the answer? To the question, “Have you had thoughts of harming anyone in the last 12 months?” Besides Trump? I asked. That answer gave me a “fully sane” rating on that questionnaire.

Today I had my annual skin check at the dermatologist. My definition of annual was a little longer than normal. Thankfully nothing much grew on me except some hereditary bumps, I blame on my mother, which they could freeze off me. Easier than getting rid of unwanted politicians. I decided I would preserve my readership numbers and not add a photo of any of those things.

After my skin check it was off to lab corp for my regular 8 tube blood draw to check me all out. At least the discussion about those results is usually a phone call so I am done for now. No more ridiculous questions. Hopefully Hippa prevents reporting me to authorities.

Back with Jan

Many of you readers have followed the journey of my dear friend Jan with her second time having breast cancer. Her first time was 34 years go, right before we met and became friends. I knew all about her first cancer, but quite frankly, as time went on, forgot she was a cancer survivor because it was just so long ago and she had been healthy with regular mammograms all those years.

Then this spring she got the news no one wants. The cancer was back. She jumped into action and had surgery and started a chemo protocol. Since she had radiation the first time that was off the table.

Jan is the most positive person. She is also smart. She does her research and follows orders well. She also accepted help, prayers, gifts and positive words of affirmation.

Popular would not cover the description of how many friends around the world Jan has. So many people brought her meals, sent her gift, cards and treats. If you did and did not get a thank you note, know that she has too many to write, but I know she appreciated everything.

She has successfully finished all her treatments and now is just waiting for hair to start to grow back so she no longer looks like a cancer patient.

Today we went to lunch to celebrate the end of this journey. Of course there will be drugs to take for years, and follow ups and maybe some body art next year to decorate her new flat chest. I probably will not forget she has now had cancer twice, but other than her hat, not much about her makes me think of cancer as she is still the happy Jan I have always known.

I want to thank those of you who responded so generously when I sent meal train requests. It was hard for me to be up north during the last six weeks of the hardest part of chemo, but with so many friends looking out for Jan I knew she was in good hands.

I wish everyone had a Jan in their lives to shine the light of positivity on things. We talked today about difficult journeys people have to walk and how it can be hard to be positive for others when you don’t feel like it. That was not the case for her, but I take that sentiment to heart as so many other friends are also walking hard journeys. I don’t want anyone to feel that you can’t share the hard parts when you feel them.

Now with Hurricane Helene devastating a quarter of North Carolina Counties it is going to be hard for people to keep a positive outlook when everyone is affected. I encourage anyone who has a loved one or acquaintance there just to lend them a listening ear so they can let out some sorrow. I know people who lose everything feel the need to say, “but we still have our lives,” or “we are still all together,” but it’s OK to be sad for the loss of the lifestyle you had and there will still be hard days ahead.

I know from being 30+ friends with Jan a positive attitude is not something you can fake. Some people have them in abundance and some people work to have it and some just never will. Support all of them because they all need support.

Happy Birthday Russ

It’s Russ’ big day. He finally came into the sixth decade, joining me a few years after I did. As with a Wednesday birthday we both worked. He had a big team meeting at work so they celebrated him. It was also a very important new team member Estelle’s birthday and her second day at the company. We are so happy to welcome Estelle as she is Carter’s best Northeastern friend, who we adore.

I got home from Rocky Mount and picked Shay up so we could all be together to celebrate Russ. He opened his presents. carter had sent a wonderful T-shirt that Russ said he is going to wear when he goes to vote. It is so great to be married to a proud feminist.

It’s a good thing since he has a strong wife, a powerful daughter and a girl dog who has him wrapped around her little paw. It’s just nice to be together.

We will do more 60th celebrating as the days go on. Russ deserves a year of celebrating.

Angel in the Sky

During my break between my afternoon and evening classes I ran out to do an errand. Again, like yesterday, the sky grew dark to a scary degree. Then suddenly the clouds broke apart and the sun burst forth into what looked like an angel.

Thankfully there was no tornado, but I did get drenched when I came out of a store. I am not complaining when whole swaths of my state are suffering with no power, cell service, no roads, no gas, no way to get out. Please send all those people affected by Helene a big angel.

As for me I’m tired as can be now and will back with you tomorrow.

For the Beauty of the Earth

I’m in Rocky Mount, NC teaching three Classes a day for the next three days. Rocky Mount had a tornado last week when Helene blew through. It was a bad one, EF 3-4 and tore up a bunch of commercial buildings. I had a break between my afternoon class and my night class so I left the Club and ran an errand.

When I was done with my errand I came out to my car to a huge black cloud hanging very low. I did not like the look of it. As I was driving back to the club my emergency weather alert went off on my phone and my car. Tornado warning. Not again I thought. I drove back to the parking lot of the club, but the rain was coming down so hard I did not want to get out of my car and run into the building.

I parked in the middle of the parking lot far from any trees or light posts. I kept watching the sky from all the windows of the car. The black was moving and not in a circular motion. I watched the map of the storm on my phone. I was fairly certain the storm was moving away from me.

Eventually it did. I looked out my side window as I was about to get out of my car to run into the club and I saw the most perfect rainbow I have ever seen. It curved from one side of the ground to the other. The colors were so intense and well delineated.

I take this as a sign that all is OK. Thanks for the beauty of the earth. I figure we all need a gorgeous rainbow right now.