I’m a Mess

Last night I went to bed sometime before 10. Not sure exactly when as I just passed out. I woke up and went to the bathroom and I felt like I had gotten plenty of sleep so I looked at the time. It was 1:06. Not plenty.

I lay back down and did my best to go back to sleep. After an eternity of being awake I played wordle and my other games on darkness mode so as not to screw up my system. It was 2:07. Then I put my phone down and tried to go back to sleep again. Still awake at 3:30 I decided to get up.

I snuck up to my elf painting area and did some Christmas painting and watched a hallmark Christmas Movie. At 6:00am Russ came up and asked what in the world was going on. I was a mess at 6:00 am and I continued to be a mess all day.

I make a giant pot of Beef Bourguignon and Brussels sprouts and butternut squash salad as I am bringing Holley and her family dinner tomorrow. Those are not quick dishes, but my tired ass was moving very slowly. At one point when my biggest Le Creuset was in the oven I lay down on the sofa for a quick 30 minute nap.

The oven timer woke me so I had to get up to continue on to the next step in the recipe. Eventually I hit a wall and Shay and I took a real nap in bed. It wasn’t close to making up for the 1 Am. I had to get up and shower to go to Sam and Ella Wolman’s celebration of their wedding last month.

I rallied enough to go to the party, see many friends and wish Tom and Lee congratulations. I hit another wall and Lynn came over and said it looks like you are planning your exit. Nothing like my great pal reading me perfectly.

Now I am doing my best to stay awake until a reasonable hour so I don’t wake up again in the middle of the night. I was productive at 3:30 in the morning, but not at 11:30. Being a mess does not suit me.