I’m Calling Everyone I Love

In the life goes on column I had Mah Jongg class at my house tonight. The group is one put together by my wonderful cousin Leigh. She asked me about my weekend as soon as she came in, as she knew where I was, but none of the other students know me or know anything about what I did this weekend.

I felt like I wanted to tell them a few Hugh stories as that is all I have done for the last few days. I wanted to tell them how sorry I am that they never knew him, but of course I didn’t.

I’m not really ready for life to go on. I did get messages and a phone call from my friends I was with this weekend. We all have the same feeling of loss. Suzanne sent a text warning us not to listen to rocket man, one of the songs Hugh’s kids sang, unless we wanted to start balling again.

I may not have been in touch with Hugh as much as I would want, but apparently most of his friends said the same thing. Regardless he still meant the world to us, even with intermittent contact.

I want to make sure the people I cherish to know how I feel about them, so everyday I am going to contact one person I haven’t spoken to in a while just to tell them I love them. If you think you should be on my list, let me know, by calling me and telling me you love me.

I want to create a giant cloud of love all around the people I care about. I don’t want anyone to say, “I haven’t talked to Dana in years.”

I have no idea how many people I need to call, but I am just going to start. So if you see my name in your caller ID I hope you will answer. If you don’t I’ll call back. If you don’t want to talk to me you might have to change your number, because I don’t want there to be any question about how I feel about you.

If I never call it means one of two things, I couldn’t find your number or I don’t really like you. You may never know which one, so just assume I couldn’t find your number.